Bila hati dekat padaNya…….

Assalamualaikum…

dobrei noch (heh..dah lama x speaking russian nih..)

ari ni dah 1sept 2006…that means dah 5 ari aku tersadai kt Russia nih..rasa cam mimpi je blk msia..skejap sgt rasanya..hu..mula2 sampai airport demodedovo, aku rasa pelik,..pesal org pandang aku semacam???tengok2, gelak2..tengok lagi, gelak lagi…iskk, irritating toll..Owh,..br baru teringat…aku kt russia,..no longer kt msia yg orgnya open minded..well,i’m wearing hijab~which made them look at me as if i’m some green alien from outerspace…hu..lalu hatiku yg kecil berkata, "AAARGGGHH!!!nak balekk besuut!!"..heheh..sabar2 nor..rantaumu mencari ilmu….menuntut ilmu adalah ibadah, mengajar kpd org yg x tahu adalah sedekah, mengulang-ulangi ilmu adalah zikir, mencari ilmu adalah jihad…go2 Nor!!aja2 fighting!!heheh… #(^o^)/

hu…Volgograd~..still the same as before…but i did notice dat the people are less frenly…sister Salmah (a russian who reverted to Islam a few months ago) said that maybe its due to recent conflict between lebanon & israel..russian media claimed that israel is peace lover and it’s the muslims that keep terrorizing…(you see, there are many jews in russia…there are even those who claimed they are christian behind the fact they are jews…Salmah told me that the previous president was jewish even he said he’s christian….and ingat lagi yahudi yg dijemput beramai2 ke palestin tu?..most of them came from russia.)..so i guess dats why they being so less frenly…(atau adakah ini prejudisku semata2??..hu..cant hide the fact dat i dislike arrogant russian people…)..

hm..Salmah is staying wif us these few days while looking for new apartment,..so a lots i can learn from her..especially russian views bout muslims, particularly Malaysian…most of them who only knew muslim through the media will similarize muslims wif terrorist..like muslim=terrorists…terrorists=muslim…but some of them mmg dah sejak azali benci foreigners….and ade jugak yg benci foreigners, tp suka bdk2 malaysia….

from her stories, i pity her…she seems to be ‘terbuang di negeri sendiri’ jez because she’s a muslim..owing to her pure russian face, (yelah..dia kan org rusia,..)..bg msykat kat sini, adalah satu perkara yg amat pelik serta luar biasa malah aneh sekali sekiranya Salmah dilihat memakai tudung…(skang kan panas, typical russian besenye kluar pakai short, tube, singlet je…)..Salmah cite even pegi market pon penah kena sekat ngn security sbb suspect dia terrorist..ada juga russian yg approach dia n tanya dia mcm2 soklan yg annoying…n byk lagi laa cte2 from Salmah selama 2 bln kami bercuti di Msia….when i told her dat not all muslim women wear hijab in Msia, she was surprised,"what?why?i thought msia is a muslim country..we look up to msia…there are so many russian muslims dat WANT to practice Islam, wearing hijab on the streets without hesitation, praying without fear,..but we CANT…" i remained speechless for a second.."not all muslims see Islam as you do..compared to them, you are lucky,..bcoz you accept Islam as the result of your awareness bout the truth of our existence, not bcoz u were born in muslims’ family…in that way,..eventhough the path is harder for you but you will appreciate Islam more…."

deep inside me…i am impressed with her..the way she sticks to her beliefs, her desire to know more bout Islam and her efforts to practice Islam in her daily life eventhough evrything is still new to her,…even she is isolated from her own family and kin….she chose Islam even when she knows her life wont be the same again…she chose Islam even the path is harder than she could ever imagined…and she becomes a muslimah not only by title or by name, but she applies it to her whole lifestyle-her thinking, her behaviour,her appearance, etc..sedangkan kita yg lahir sedia ada dalam Islam, sewenang-wenangnya memperlekehkan hukum-hakam halal dan haram, malah kdg kala Islam itu sendiri dengan mngambil budaya barat sbg pakaian kita.Melayu dan Islam sudah tdk sinonim lg…kdg2 blk msia…rasa kompius; aku ni kt msia ke kt overseas?..sbb cara pakaian pon dah lebey kuang sama je…

kita nih manusia, an nas a.k.a bapak pelupa (bak kata deney)..justeru we owaz take things for granted…bila dah xde, baru sedar nilainya…bak kata org jiwang2,bila dah ilang dr pandangan, baru rindu-rinduan….huhu..sesal dahulu pendapatan sahabat2ku….

Dalam meniti arus kehidupan, kita sering lupa tujuan utama kita diciptakan….we forgot the sole purpose of our existence..yakni mencari redha Allah s.w.t…as a fren said "we are khalifa- khalifa means to be better person, to make others better, and to make this world a better place."..insyaAllah

justeru itu sahabat2ku…jadikanlah proses hidup ini suatu ibadah…tak lama pon dok kat dunia nih…jgn sia2kan masa yg dipinjamkan…udah2 ler tu dok tgk cite2 x berfaedah, baca manga(nih teguran utk diri sdiri..isk3), gayut2 kat tpon, msg2 dgn jejaka idaman hati, kluar date, shoping moping,bergossip-gossipan..etc….sesungguhnya tanggungjawab yg kita lebih byk dari masa yg ada….aja2 fighting!!(eyh?..tetibe jek) (^o^)v hoho~

hmm…esok dah stat kelas..ehh,, bukan esok, ari nila..(skang dah kol 2.30am)..hehe…and my horror life as a 3rd year medical student begin..jeng3…bak kata Pok Nik kat rebutia summercamp, "PROGRAM KITA BARU BERMULA…"yeyeahh!!aja2 fighting!! #(^o^)/ …hu…gerun je tgk buku pharmaco~…xleyyy teball lagii kaa???..huhu..xpe2…apapun akn kuharungi demi amanah ini…amanah ibu bapa, JPA, dan pembayar2 cukai sekalian..insyaAllah!!   ^(^_^)^…lillahitaala…FIGHTINGGGG!!!

hehe..sekian saje bebelanku buat kali ini..hu..ntah pape x ikut susunan langsung…berterabur sesuka ati aku je nk tulis ape (suke ati akula, blog aku..hoho~)

later…salamz~

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